Sunday, June 04, 2006
staying strong
trying ta play your game
silence means?
wells im not sure
i may seem fine outside
but inside?
full of confusion. unhappiness.
still i have ta stay strong
and stay positive
but i know you won't care.
oh wells. BeEeg sMiLe =D
- nice knowing you for e past 1 yr 1 day -
shamm =D
8:46 AM
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
*heyy i wish you all e best with him ks. i guess that's it eh? =D
=D=D=D=D=D=D
for e 1st time im smiling. out wit sec bros. jokes jokes jokes. hahs until one part when i tried ta be a match maker? =D wells i did smile while doing that ok? hahs.
I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
Damn that's sad
There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me
shamm =D
8:25 AM
Monday, May 29, 2006
being e manpower head did give me an adv. scroll thru e freshie list and guess what i found out? alot. firstly was danny's ting. but then i was there ta check something else thou.
mr ang & mrs sim xxx
owh yeah. i knew it all along but i juz wanna reconfirm. and yeps its true. oh oh and perhaps the metal tingy on his teeth made u melt rite?
can sum1 pls tell me why do i owaes find out things that she wants ta hide from me?!?!?
whers e sms-es? whers e calls? whers e meet-ups? pls, u promised u wont go away...
owh im so enjoying my last days. bull****
shamm =D
6:12 AM
Sunday, May 28, 2006
time flies very fast. am soon gonna go overseas, for at least 3mths? haiz. mixed feelings i shud say. been feeling e ups and downs of the aftamath of grad, and also camp. different emotions filled my heart thru out these times. perhaps maybe im the fickle minded one here? i dunno. but i have to give it to ma men. people like my constantine bros, ken ahow razif n all. colinn mal n many more. thanks ta her frens for those tiny miny encouragements here n der. thnks to all of you who have been there for me all these while, esp thru those e.m.o times. thanks for e tips n all, which i didnt need them i think cos i never use them eventually. hahs yea yea i know u guys gave me a name. HUH? what? pussy cat doll? Narhsss. heees.
many things have happend since e day i've met you but have i ever regretted experiencing them? NEVER. i respect all that you've done oks.
everything she does is beautiful. everything she does is right.
i dunno wats on ur mind now. perhaps maybe i juz know u pretty well but not that well. trying ta be contradicting har? perhaps thers something you're hiding since that day, 5weeks ago? anw i juz need a wonderful farewell eh before i become a property of something else. you're grounded now. oh dear! im really feeling sick now. what does it mean? no more hang-outs. no more chilling. no more sending you home. yeah yeah happy rite? lols. i'm not thou. im sure to feel the lost, e feeling of missing somethin. tings gonna reach the peak very very soon. i really hope your happy with what you are nw. anw i do have few wishes before i go in. ask ard if you wanna noe.
where are you? i miss you. then again theres always a qstn you can ask. what can you do? wells lorry loads of them. =B
even if you have finally found ur mr perfect, you dun hav ta be like that dreadful times rite? u noe wat i mean. don't you ever treasure those memories? owh man. tis is realy getting deep and meaningless... =/
err ok guys in case tis is my last entry for e mth, i wud like ta take tis oppoortunity ta thank all of you for everything. hahs wats eevrything anw? errr eevrything lahh! haha. n yeah, apologies pls if i have done anythign wrong yeah. HOHO sounds as if i wont be coming back eh?? HAHA. narhs i'll be back, no worries!! take care all... =D
listening ta my compilation of songs: an album by 'shamms but not shamfull'
shamm =D
8:21 AM
Saturday, April 29, 2006
LOOK AT MY HAIR. STARE AT MY HAIR.
COS YOU MIGHT NOT SEE IT AGAIN..... =D
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am bored.
am missing someone.
feels like its happening again.
oh please please... hurrhurr
I'm really really sorry if i did sumting wrong yea. =(
"watchin movie..."
shamm =D
5:54 AM
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Everything is sumting aftarall.
1st March 2006. The end has finally come. I juz took my last paper in Ngee Ann Polytechnic after three awesome and wonderful years. Just as exitted the lift at blk 56 at 11.00am, i saw year 3s, smiling, luffing, all overjoyed. GRADUATION. yeps all has came true. but as they joy, i sobbed. unfinished bizness i shud say. but anyway i shud be happy rite? so as i move on, i'll like to recap e nice memorable significant events and days of my 3 yrs in a small temparory home called Ngee Ann Polytechnic.........
Journey once ended on 25th October 2002 at Jurongville Sec. Yeps nvm if u tink we were typical neighbourhood sch students, but apparently we were e ones that help give e sch a good image. yeah my group of frens were the best. we called ourselves tha kronos FC when we formed a soccer team. recruited a few others, and ended up a multi racial team. nvm bout tha fact we only win a few times, but in our hearts, we knew we were marvellous as a team. Then in early years of sec4, our fame increases. well frankly there were 11 guys who were always together, recess, afta sch, n everyting thou we were not in e same class. There were 4 to 5 popular ones (i wasnt one! LALALA). And so girls dun mind us minggling wit them. yeah cool har? but me as usual, only chose e rite ones. doesnt matter how pretty u are to others. if ur not to me, den orh. Hees. ok we called ourselves The Dizturbance. head by zulhakim, his followers were fizz shamm rudy alan rey fidz zeke fiq farhan ravi n more. andd on that 25th Oct, graduation day, seriuzly some of us cried. everything had to end afta 4 years. Oh yes, o levels ended on 25th November eh. hees i remmberd.
Then soon afta, results n postings n all were out. not all chose to go to the same poly thou eventually 3 of us got e same course. only 1 chose to be in JC thou most of us cud go in. JC? uniforms? eeee. but i like uniforms thou. but i juz hate taking english. LOLs. ok so as we moved on, i became e 1st of many to get involved in poly activities. went ta the NP FOC Camp with yong tat before we even started sch. made many frens der. girls? yes alot! interest? yes alot! hitched? errmm standard. my name is hisham rite? hahs. group name was ROmans! n we were e most creative and noisy group. won e best cheers eh. and never did i tot that this camp cud be a significant one for me. it wasnt to be my last FOC Camp thou......
then went ta my department's orientation camp, 3DO Camp. Fun but not as fun as FOC camp. shud i say it was organized by sum "slow" pple? yeah but still i enjoyed it. then days later, sch started. 30th June 2003. entered a classroom full of new faces, except for my groupmate during 3do camp thou. different faces, ahbeng, a grandpa wit spikey hair, a tudung girl, e berd, e anti social, n many more. owh man! i hate my class! wheres e chiobus?? n seriuzly as days went by, my classmates were always quarelling wit each other. oh man how cant i have peace n unity among my mates.. thankfully it was not that bad in the 2nd sem. i cud talk to my kakak, like at last afta few mths. hahs she used to tink dat i was too proud of maself cos i only choose to tok to chiobus. duhhh im never like dat ok. =D n basically der was another reason.
found my first love, in poly, just afta few mths in poly n few weeks before our sem1 exams. ok so well as u noe, i nvr say i love you to a girl unless i mean it. n dat was e first time i really meant it when poly started. neglected my friends, my buddies cos of her. stoopid me. but too bad all went wrong and guess who was der? my FRIENDS. n of cos e tudung girl, siti. got over her eventually afta some surgery. wahahha. so peeps out der who got cheated, i understand eh. Bleahs =P yeps more info in my old blog if its still valid? LOL.
as the exams was over, pple started disappearing again. so did i turn to? my FOC frens. yeah 2nd year of FOC camp. this time as GL. n der i found many crazy frens, suitable for me. haha. no surprise for us to click together very fast. then my group was Hopi, led by the father of all stupidity, kit! my group was damn fun, or i shud say e whole camp crew was fun. enjoyed maself all e way thou i cud see no significant girls in my grp. again, rumours flew around but its already in me to ignore. seniors came to ma group to tell me how lucky i was. soo many cuteys. really meh? too bad i didnt realize any. only afta i looked back at my photos did i realize. haha but nvm all nt my type. hehe. seriuz lah! so thru FOC camp, i developed much bigger circle of frens. true frens? hmm yet to noe.
so tings began to turn around slowly but surely for ma class. in sem 3, me n clicks named ourselves. GESKY Gerald Eric Shamm Kenneth Yungquan. yeah we were e most famous grp in class, making nuisance of ourselves eac time e class was down. me, goin in frnt of e class n cheer them up. oh yeah man, i was like e cheer leader of e class! might as join magnum force rite? haha. GESKY cud haf lasted all e way if not for gerald who quitted sch half way. n so this grp got smaller n new mmbrs were recruited. yungquan found a gf n we almost fought cos of that. we started to neglect us but i didnt mind cos i was like him once. kenneth got too emotional i think. he has been treasuring frenship since his 1st day in poly. learnt his lessons maybe in sec sch. so der i was in sem 4, e top student for mobile computing. yeps was e 1st acad award since pri2. hehee. unpredictable, unexpected yeah but still it happened.
n so by sem4, hmm lets see how many frens i haf compared to my classmates clicks? haha uncountable. i haf soo many hi bye frens n also real frens. no kidding. but i tot i was crazy enuff to say hi to pple almost everywher i go in sch. there are worse pple to come, HAHA! so again hols of sem4, back to FOC pple. oh ya, have been wit the ICT Society since my 1st 3do camp n was in their exco comm. hahs. eventually got outcasted cos we werent in e same frequency. i understand mandarin n i dun expect others to tok bad about me in mandarin in front of me. but too bad dats wat they did cos dey didnt noe my background eh. so yeah FOC peeps are e best! this time i was closer to e crew. n even chose not to be DH cos i preferred to be wit e cool guys. yeah we were more bonded wit each other. haha den der was e little time of anti-GLs campaign cos dey were too lazy to help out. haha but it turned out to be fun thou. we tot dem a lesson. was e water fall IC, n pia zui IC for the camp. n as expected, i will be known but not as popular lah. who will remmber a crew member rite? LALALA. so no matter where i go, walking wit yong tat or chee how, they stopped and talked to freshies. me? juz act like i noe dem eh. HAHA. i loove to act famous eh.
and so by this time, sem 5! n i had no other frens to turn to except foc peeps cos my frens were away on attachments n i cudnt go, thnks to who? maself! shant blame others. so i got much much closer to foc peeps n till one day i was elected in the NPSU exco comm. yeps as usual, i dare to take responsiblities. hard on me but i still loove it. then decided to join rugby afta so many years of absence. everyting went well. oh yea i have no girl in mind since e camp. i juz played around n when i play i dun keep dem in my heart, only at some small tiny miny part in my mind. haha. im not bad ok! all was ok until one day when chee how brought in his frreshie, e Runners up for FOC Pageantino 05/06, to SU. damn. when? hahs, 4th June 2005. Damn i was juz playing with them that i cud fall for her but it turned being seriuz. see lah shamm, play sumore lah.
<<<<<<<>>>>>>>>>>> =D
shamm =D
3:04 AM
Saturday, February 18, 2006
* Oops. think lightning struck at the wrong time. BUT.. *
all i can do now is to understand you. yeps i understand you inside out eh. from the time you were juz took ecstasy till the very moment you got struck by lightning and then rained.
-= Stay strong owaes oke. I'm strong =-
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shamm =D
7:46 AM